In case you were wondering.

In case you were wondering.
I don't look you in the eye anymore.
I can't stand watching our pictures.
There are plenty of places, i can't go to.
Certain words, make me cry.
I have to keep stopping my mind from replaying all the conversations we had.
All the memories.
In case you were wondering,
it's because i miss you.

I wrote this for you.

So, i was searching online for the words "Wrote this for you".
And boom, i found the blog.
I wrote this for you.
As i am supposed to find it.
Perfect serendipity.
Because, as i love to believe, finding it, is a sign.
I log onto the blog, each and every day.
And i always use the "Random post" button,
because each random posts defines an important decision i want to make, or resembles a "Sign" i had planned for before.
But as i press the "random post" button, i know what i want to do exactly. And the post that comes is  ALWAYS relevant to that thing. Each and every time.
It never fails me.
The blog is practically always, talking to me.
And then, to make things more perfect.
A book.
I've been trying to get it for the past 3 weeks, but it is not available in Egypt (Yet.)
And the day, i got my copy to write this review.
I was literally jumping up and down from joy.
I was too excited.
I had my favorite book.
Now the only problem was that, i did not want to read it anymore.
Yes, i did not want to.
Because, once i start it, i knew i'd get it finished.
And i did not want to finish it.
So i kept avoiding it, for 3 hours.
3 long hours of resistance.
But then, i gave in.
I started reading ..
And i did not put my reader down, until i was done with it.
A paradox; a page turner without being a page turner.
Because you always want to know what is next, but what you just read is so beautifully written that you can't just leave it, after reading it once.
You keep rereading it, and re-rereading it ..
And you keep thinking, and over thinking.
Your head keeps on filling you with all the relevant emotions and memories.
Your heart aches. And longs. And rejoices.
You are not here anymore. You are in a parallel universe. Where your heart is being spoken out.
The thing is, as soon as i was done with it, i knew i was totally screwed.
How am I supposed to write a review, when the book made me speechless? Literally.
How are you supposed to describe an experience?
You don't.
You can't
I can't.
You have got to experience it, yourself, for you to know,
for you to understand.
It was written for you. It is written for you.
And i'd be wasting your time, telling you about it.
Because you have got to read what has been written for you, yourself.
For you, to understand.

A part of me.

A part of me,

that you first touched,

is thinking of you.

Misses you.

Longing for you.

And until that part, 

forgets.

It might go on, 

forever. 

The ugly reality.

Moments, are all you get.
Usually, with the people, you love the most.

The perfection of a moment.

Which is when gravity gave up on us.

Which is when a child was celebrating his first year of existence.

Which is when we ran too fast. Even faster than the wind.

Which is when we got tangled like a tornado.

Which is when a snowflake landed on your cheeks.

Which is when we drank hot chocolate on a cold evening's night, while watching TV on the couch.

Which is when you were sleeping right there beside me.

Which is when i looked into your eyes.

Which is when i knew you.

Which is when i heard you speak for the very first time.

Which is when i was wearing a white dress, and you, a black suit.

Which is when, we waited for your bus to leave, but when it came, you couldn't go away.

Which is when we held hands, while i delivered our very first baby.

Which is when we ran away to Australia, and did not tell anyone.

Which is when we laughed at all our secret jokes, that no one got, but us.

Which is when we slept like we are dead, because we knew we'd wake up next to one another.

Which is when the furthest we got away, was the room next door.

Which is when aliens abducted us.

Which is when we held hands, while bungee jumping.

Which is when we went diving.

Which is when we knew everything about each other.

Which is when we did something stupid, as fighting over silly things.

Which is when the world seemed more like a happy place. Only seemed.

Which is when we could not stop arguing, whether which of us fell in love, first.

Which is when, a mother held her child, for the very first time.

Which is when we danced to a song, we only knew.

Which is when we couldn't stop talking about nonsense, just for the sake of talking.

Which is when you inspired me.

Which is when i started dreaming about you.

Which is when, we stopped telling others, because they stopped understanding.

Which is when the world made sense. At least, to us.

Occupy me.

The negative space you left. 
The negative space, you left.
Occupy me. 
Occupy your space.

Lets entertwin, get tangled.

The one.

I never asked you to let yourself out, i just asked you to let me in. 
Let me in. 
Let me inside you.