Wednesday, September 28, 2011

The she.


She's that kind of girl, who might not open up to you on your first meeting.
she might not open up to you at all.
She does not do blabbing.
Quiet. 

She is quiet.
She watches.

And she's silent.
Her silence could freak you out.
But believe me, what should freak you, is what is going on inside that head of hers.
She thinks. 

She over thinks.

 And she obsesses. 
Her thoughts wonder undeclared territories.

That only she has the right to declare.
She digs for theories.

 Tries to find peace in conspiracies.
An eternal state of thinking. 

 Deep Analyzation. 
She might have decided long ago that she hated this life. 

Too agonizing, too appallingly fragile.
She remorses in solitude.

Not because of depression.
 
 But for the joy she finds in solitude.
     
 Cause well.. People suck.
There might come a point of your life when you simply can no longer grieve for everything that life throws at you.
Happiness is rare.
 But Will she ever give up finding it?
Shes on her own pursuit of happiness.
And a fighter like herself, will surely Win the quest.

 Maybe not today, but someday. 



To the person, who i can have the most deep, thought provoking conversations, in the world with. 

To the person, whos thoughts entertain me the most.

To the person, who i know will be the next big thing, only if she sets her mind to.

To the only person, who gets/discusses my theories. 

To my pessimistic friend.

My only writer friend.

The yang to my grey.

Happy birthday.

Monday, September 19, 2011

The knowing.


You make my stomach tighten.
You make me feel butterflies.
You make me lose the ability to speak.
You make me nervous.
But you already know that.
I thought you lost your magic on me.
I thought i got over all of this.
I thought we could be friends.
I thought you won't make me smile.
But you already proved me wrong.
My heart skips four beats.
My hand sweats.
My mind goes blank.
You chaos me.
But I already knew that.
They say distance weakens the love.
They say at some point you stop missing someone.
They say that who is far from sight, is far from the mind.
But we already proved them wrong.
You probably would never read this.
But you and I already knew all of that.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

The line.

I imagine. I imagine everything, with you and me, in my head.

I remember. I remember everything, about you and me, in my head.

I think of you. I think of you and me, everyday.

And I am afraid. I am afraid that I’d mix reality with imagination.

What if, one day, I wake up and I don’t know, whether that really happened, or I just made it up ?

The Denial.

When people stop calling you back,
when they stop calling you at all,
you think to yourself, whats wrong with them ?
People stop talking to you, laughing with you.
It is annoying.
They do not want to be around you anymore, it's not as fun as it used to be,
and you think to yourself, why did they change ?
People are avoiding you.
& just then, you know it ,
what's wrong with me?

Let the blog, speak to you.